Let’s Catch Up

I started to edit the About Me page and I found myself writing and writing…so here ya go…enjoy!

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Easy Breezy Me

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• Age: 43
• Gender: Female
• Astrological Sign: Gemini
• Zodiac Year: Horse
• Occupation: Writer and Observer of all things Absurd
• Location: San Francisco : CA
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• I’m a gal from SF who has been up and down, literally and figuratively. I’m gregarious, sensitive, dramatic, and loving to the core. I am on this journey through this life and sometimes learning lessons, sometimes ignoring them, but hoping to reach wholeness before the whole thing’s over. Updated 7-09 — I’m still a girl but I’m not in SF anymore…I’m in the burbs…I’m still funny, way too sensitive.   Life is still teaching me lessons and I’ve been through a lot as you can tell from all the blogs….I’ve had 3 blogs about weight loss and being fat:  fatgirlcamp.blogspot.com, thefatgirlcamp.blogspot.com, and a typepad one which i deleted long ago.  I keep trying to hide from the people from my past that I don’t want reading this because i feel i’ll be judged…but it really doesn’t matter what they think.  they’ve moved on with their lives and seem to be thriving…so why can’t i?   i’m doing well, since december 25 2008 i have stopped smoking 2 packs a day, i’ve lost 70 pounds in the past 13 weeks and i feel a tidbit of hope.   i still am difficult to get along with but people seem to love me anyway.   i don’t like capitalizing words and i’m a fan of ee cummings for that reason.   i enjoy sarcasm and nothing gives me a chuckle more than a good story from the onion.   i seem to watch a lot of tv and have tried to write tv sites tons of times but they always get abandoned….too busy watching tv to write about it….i am opening this blog back up in hopes that i will once again connect with those other blogger peeps that were so important to me during the darkest times.  i wonder where they are?   i hope they find me….i’m going to go look for them.
• i have a pug who weighs 40 pounds and he’s not overweight.  he’s a huge pug.  a mutant.   nobody can figure out why he’s so big….tall broad and lean but huge.  and the love of my life.   he is always by my side.
• i have the best job one could want but i often complain about it and find everyone i work with frustrating.  mostly i am frustrated and it has nothing to do with them.
• i almost always stick my nose where it doesn’t belong and i find it really hard to keep secrets.
• i love my mom and my dad is dead and was pretty much not that into me.   i have two brothers one of which talks to me and is lovely and another who told me i am dead to him.
• i have nieces and nephews and i don’t get to see them much but when i do my insecurities come out and i feel i need to be the favorite auntie.
• often times i feel like it is all about me.
• i have two kitties as well who are named ollie and moo but i call them kitty.
• i go to the dog park almost every day unless its raining or the weather is too hot for george. (that’s the pug)
• i often find things bug me and i like to talk about what bugs me.
• i love people alot and care but often i am hurt by them.   i think this goes back to that dad who didn’t pay me much attention and the irony of every situation being all about me.
• i’ve had a lot of therapy.   i still get a lot of therapy.   therapy is good.   my therapist is a rock star.
• i’ve lost over 200 pounds twice in my adult life and gained it back both times.   i was in overeaters anonymous and food addicts in recovery anonymous.   i tried to be perfect in both programs and got very thin and then got very fat again.   i tried to take my own life in 2003 when i was failing in fa and i was losing my mind in all the insane perfection.  it seems a lot of people can do that program and not go nuts.  that’s not the case for me.
• i have found a wonderful way for me to lose weight and am grateful to be releasing weight every week.
• i’m scared about what will happen when the weight is off and i get sad mad depressed disappointed or bored.  i dont ever want to have to live at over 400 pounds again.
• i love movies and only recently have i been able to go to them again because i can finally fit in the seat.
• i am fat but i always make sure that my makeup is perfect and my hair as perfect as can be.  i’ve always been obsessed with hair and makeup.
• i thought i was going to go back and get my masters in psych but i think i might want to get a cosmetology license.  that dad who didn’t pay me much attention always told me that was a loser career.  i’ve always wanted to do it.  i think i will.
• i loathe passive aggressiveness.
• i loathe fake people.
• i hate the corporate game.
• i like the way it feels when i swim.
• i find facebook very confusing but i am all over twitter.
• do you want to know more?   stay tuned!

• George the Wonder Pug